Joy in the Little Moments

I have friends who ask me "How are you doing so well?" If they only knew, is what I think to myself when I am asked questions such as that. The truth is it is finding joy in the little moments that helps. I am incredibly blessed. I have a wonderful family who loves and supports me. I have two beautiful children who I get to watch learn and grow. I have incredible friends who are willing to do whatever they can to help. Also, I have a belief in a Higher Power who is constantly there and helping me. 

There have been times for me, on this journey, that I have felt a darkness like no other clouding down around me. I have felt deep despair and loneliness. When you are going through a divorce at such a young age it can be very daunting. For me, it felt like I was a leper or something. That might sound dramatic but, it is how I felt. The fear I felt was overwhelming. I felt like this for a long time. Some days I still feel this way. This journey is so full of ups and downs sometimes I can't keep my head on straight. 

The joy I feel comes from recognizing that I have been taken out of a situation that was less than ideal. I have been given another chance at love and happiness. It comes from seeing the smiles and hearing the excited squeals of "Mommy! Mommy!" when I pick my children up from daycare. I feel it in the hugs from my parents knowing that the love they feel for me is like none other. I know that they will go to the ends of the earth to protect my children and I. I see it in my every day. When I get up in the morning and feel the sunshine on my face I know that I am blessed. Finding joy in these little moments is what helps me get through those rough times. I am so grateful for the ability to see through the mess and know that what waits on the other side is going to be incredible.